I can't keep holding this in anymore. Truth is, I'm tired, of literally everything.

I don't even know how to describe this, I just don't know. I'm so fucking tired and I literally keep actively avoiding to get my life together. Why the hell am I still here? Well, not even I know! I haven't been able to draw, and I've basically been stuck in my own head. I just... Don't even know man. Only a few months ago did I start coming to terms with the fact that what I have is in fact trauma and it's been a really interesting process for me. Healing has been really weird and I just don't even know.

Anyways I'm gonna stop writing this before I accidently end up sharing too much.